Our world has been ripped apart<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Life never to be the same.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Moving in slow motion, stuck in quick sand.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Earth has stopped revolving<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Life has come to a screeching halt<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Not grasping this magnitude<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Telling myself to inhale<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Exhale<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Breathe<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I feel catatonic. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
You were just there. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
You\u2019ve always been there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You\u2019ve been there for 34 years.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You rescued me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
You\u2019ve been there to ensure my safety. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
You\u2019ve been there to inspire me<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You\u2019ve given me gratitude<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You\u2019ve shown me true laughter, especially at myself<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You gave me happiness in its truest form<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You gave me an incredible unconditional love<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This new scar tissue runs deep through my entire being<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My jigsaw puzzle of my heart, body and soul<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am just in freefall <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dropping out of reality with no parachute<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My heart is on a roller coaster and I can\u2019t breathe<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can\u2019t accept. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can\u2019t stop replaying<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can\u2019t figure out what went so terribly wrong. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can\u2019t understand why I couldn\u2019t help you<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The first and last time I ever saw you in pain.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can\u2019t understand why you were taken from us.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can\u2019t understand why you were taken from me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can\u2019t stop missing you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I still have so much to ask you<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We had more special moments ahead<\/p>\n\n\n\n
There were still milestones in our life <\/p>\n\n\n\n
When I speak of you, my throat is all tangled up<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This volcano of grief erupts, despite all efforts<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It spills out like lava that has been dormant. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
A volcano of my soul spouting tears<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My habit of going to you is still present.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When I realize my truth I sink<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My life is now two parts<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And now I am in the aftermath of destruction <\/p>\n\n\n\n
There is nothing<\/p>\n\n\n\n
No more texts<\/p>\n\n\n\n
No more calls<\/p>\n\n\n\n
No more hugs<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Even once more would not be enough<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have a punctured lung. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Every breath a painstaking task<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My lead feet don\u2019t know where to take me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
My path is now undefined. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pains I have never felt<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Everything comes back to you<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But there is an incredible unconditional, everlasting love I will hold tight to until I see you again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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